Memento

I think I’ve decided to name each blog after a film, piece of art or song. Seems like a cool idea. For anyone who hasn’t seen the film ‘Memento’ you’ve spared your brain two hours of a confusing plot and backwards narrative, literally. Nevertheless it’s a good film and worth the watch it if ours into psychological thrillers. Which, if you’re interested in this blog you could quite easily be.

I said previously this blog would be about me. But only a brief introduction because that’s all that’s needed currently.

I’m a 20 year old man, technically. Don’t think I’m there yet but that’s pretty normal. I live in Surrey with my parents and younger brother. I’ve already spoken about why I want to write this blog in terms of helping to create a more peaceful world. But from a resonant perspective growing up I experienced awful anxiety, which has impacted a lot of my life. However I am very lucky to have had the parents I have and the upbringing I did, many other children out there were not as fortunate.

I went through many periods of anger and resentment about my situation, caused by my inability to do things that people my own age could do easily and fear of the future. This peaked in my late teenagers years and caused symptoms of pretty severe depression.

Just before my twentieth birthday I reached a breaking point. I realised that self pity and indulgence weren’t having the impact I thought they would. Acceptance is a really hard thing to do, especially when you’re young and only see the future as being exactly how the present is appearing. I read books, watched endless videos on alleviating suffering from psychology to spirituality, I started meditating, made goals and became conscious of my habits and where my attention lay.

And all this was helpful. I still experience anxiety quite often. Applying the knowledge is where the true power lies, which is something that is a bit more difficult for me than learning it. With this idea of ‘Breaking Poimt’ hopefully we can create a platform for people to spread information and messages to one another in times of darkness. With the ultimate goal of leading others and Ourselves into the light and towards more consciousness of our own being and how we interact with the Universe.

Thank you for reading and looking forward to our next encounter.